It's kinda funny how you can find things out when you ask the same question five times, but only in different ways. I've told people numerous times over and over again that I'm not a mind reader but people still feel that I am. When I ask "How are you?" I wanna know the truth ... not what you think I want to hear. Hell, I know all about being lonely, afraid, broke, single, etc ... the list could go on and on.

Yesterday I got out and paid some bills -- Car Note, Cellular Bill, and Utilities. Even though my account is somewhat low and I'll probably have to depend on my spare change in my car to live off for about a week -- I much rather have my bills paid. Gas prices are dropping as the days go bye ... Thank Gawd for that one. For a mintue there prices were hitting 2.00 dollars a gallon ... that was murder! Seems like everything in California is sky high ... So high that they could touch the sky.

I had planned on spending the day with myself -- I believe everyone needs a little "me," time. I usually end up at the bookstore for a couple of hours emerged in to books and magazines. I was on my way to Barnes and Nobles when my cell phone rang and I decided to alter my plans and have lunch with Maurice. We met up at Chilli's and had lunch together .... Now that I think about it, Who do we think we are having a lunch date? I always thought that only happened in movies for some odd reason. I had a couple of drinks, those electric lemonades are the bomb! When the waiter came back to our table and asked me if I wanted another one ... I said "Yes." Maurice looked at me and said, "Antonio, They don't give free refills on alcohol." I kinda laughed and said "Maurice, I know ... and the last time I checked I had money in my wallet to pay for my portion of the bill."

After coming home I took a long nap -- It was one of those naps that make you think you've been asleep for years. Now that I think about it ... That nap felt good. I went to asleep without worrying about anything. Even though I hate to admit it -- I'm a thinker. I think about everything ... and at times I worry about things I can't change or have no control over. At times I let my emotions take over when they shouldn't.

I made a trip to Costco to get some ice cream ... I'm lovin' buying things in bulk. The only thing that I don't appreciate are the long lines. They really need to think about opening up a Quick Express line or something of that nature. I had to wait behind a lady who had a heap load of shit in her basket ... and I tried to play the role of "Do-You-Think-I-Could-Go-Before-You?" My request was denied ... and I had to wait for her to be rung up. Nonetheless, I made it home with my 48 ice creams that I only paid 10 dollars for.

Did anyone see Whitney on the MJ special last night ... She looked horrible! I was sitting in my room on the verge of rage ... How in the hell did she end up like that? Some probably would blame Bobby ... but more importantly I blame ... Whitney. For every action there is a reaction. But enough about Whitney ... Tamia, Monica, Mya, Deborah Cox, and Rah Digga were good. I didn't get to see the whole show because I promised a friend I would stop bye (which I did for those wondering.) I've decided that I would stick with my promises ... I know I hate when people say one thing to me and do something totally different -- So I gotta teach others the way I want to be treated.

"Have you been listening? I'm gonna tell you the point. I'm gonna feed you the point. The point is...I don't know the point, alright?" ~ Love Jones

Earlier this morning that's exactly how I felt while having a conversation with a friend. During a previous conversation with them I asked why they weren't calling me ... and tonight they finally broke down and stated that they weren't calling because they didn't want to become attached to me. I'm really not sure what the point of this paragraph was or is ...

I think I'm going to end this entry with a simple "I Love You." If you think it's for you ... So be it. My whole purpose on posting the statment is too let you know how I feel ... Maybe it'll make your day or place a smile on your face. This past month has been real trying on all of us ... and I'm just trying to spend some love out into the universe.

Alright -- I'm Gone.