I had planned on getting real ugly in this entry, but the more I thought about it I decided against it. Your probably wondering what I was going to get ugly about ... Let's just say they know and I know how Ugly it has been.

As I sat in my bed last night I thought about what I was going to do about the situation or how I was going to handle the situation. Truth be told, there probably isn't anything I can do since the cycle has already been broken. I'm probably the one to blame ... and I'm willing to take full blame for everything that has gone wrong.

So here it goes:

Dear YOU,

I understand that I hurt you and mishandled your emotions. I've apologized numerous times before so I don't think it's necessary for me to do so here. I just want you to know that I'm wishing you the best. I know you probably hate me. You probably were serious about putting a water hose into my car ... I never second guessed your love for me and I thank you for being you -- and nothing more.

Sincerely,

Me

I'm sitting here thinking to myself -- "Can you be friends with your ex's friends?" Maybe it's silly of me to even ask this because it's really hard for me to turn my back on people. I'm really good friends with people from relationships gone back. I don't think the friend of the ex should be X'ed out of the picture.

Last night I was informed that I was a taker and that I needed to grow some balls ... I'll keep that in mind.

Alright -- I'm Gone