In my previous entry I was mentioning how I was informed that I needed to grow some balls and that I was a taker. Well I've been thinking about that lately, and it's been bothering me. For some odd reason I just couldn't accept the fact that I was a "taker," .... because deep inside I knew that I was a giver. Maybe I'm being selfish with that comment, but it's how I feel -- It's what I know.

In a certain situation I've been acting really selfish ... But in a way it's only human nature. It's kinda like when your a kid and your parents bring home a new toy for you to play with -- Your interest is there for the first day or so but after awhile it gets old. As soon as a neighbor comes over or even worst a family member (cousin) and they want to play with that "new," toy ... All hell breaks loose. Your interest in the toy becomes like it was when you first got it. When deep down inside you know you only want it know 'cause someone else has it or is giving it attention. And to sum it up in one piece ... that's what I've been doing.

It's been really cold lately and I was finally able to break out my peacoat that I had tuck away for days like this. While I was driving home tonight I noticed how dirty my car was and I kinda shook my head in disappointment ... Then I looked up and noticed the wax still on my car from the last time I tried to wash and wax my car.

This weekend I spent some time with my friends ... I'm always focusing in on people that I'm interested in or talking too, that at times I neglect my friends. I've been spending cash on everything under the sun ... but it felt good not to be couped up indoors. It's always nice to get a phone call from a friend inviting you out somewhere.

I'm somewhat tired ... So I'm going to end this entry here.