And that's how we should keep it.

It's on everybody's mind, about you and I,

They think so, but they don't really know.

Or wanna know that,

You're my little secret,

And that's how we should keep it.

We should never let 'em know,

Never let it show.

If you know, like I know,

We should never let it go." ~Xscape

Those words sum up a situation that I'm going through right now in my life. At first I tried to deny it but I can no longer act as if I don't see it ... I'm just playing along with the part for the time being. Even though I have no told the person this -- They really mean alot to me ... and I'm afraid what may happen if we go from a friendship to a relationship. I'm really not worried about the situation because I've already decided what needs to be done ... and that's to continue being a friend until a position opens up for me.

This evening I chatted with Anthony and he said something that was very interesting ... He called me a man. You're probably wondering what that has to do with anything ... but for some odd reason when I heard him called me a man -- I smiled. That probably means nothing to you reading this ... but it meant alot to me ... It's the little things that you seem to appreciate.

Tonight I was involved in a bi-coastal disagreement, thanks to Sevet. My part in the disagreement was very little but some didn't see it as that. I'm glad (Well I hope and pray that the drama is over)and I don't intend in getting into something like that again ... 'cause it was about to get UGLY!

Alright -- I'm Gone