Since I've known you, you have been a very sweet and caring individual. I have shared a lot of things with you and I have learned a lot of things about you. I've enjoyed your friendship and contemplated a more serious Intimate relationship with you. (This weekend I smiled to myself when --- said we would make a cute couple.) But the truth of the matter is that there is more to relationships than just being cute together. Three long term relationships, all of which lasting from 1 to 2 1/2 years, has taught me that.

Those relationships also taught me a lot about myself, who I am, where I am going and what I want in life and in a partner. Why am I saying all of this? Well, I've sat and looked at our interaction, and in my observations, I don’t think you would be able to deal with me. I've always placed high expectations on the guys that I've dated, been in relationships with and even those that say they are interested in me. Certain efforts have to be made...nothing major. (But pursuit of any relationship requires more that e-mail dialogue.) Personal face to face interaction is very much apart of getting to know someone. I guess its true that the guys I've dated have spoiled me with the attention they've shown me. But it was always reciprocated 150%. And it is not a desire for me but a requirement. Why am I saying this? Well because I don't see us actually sharing that time or even trying to and I've made steps towards doing so, something I have never done in any other relationship or with any other man. In the inception I don't want much time with the person pursuing me or the person I'm interested in but at least there must be an interest shown in doing so. You are a very mature person but I also believe that my experience in relationships leaves me wanting something that you have not yet learned how to give yet. But you are a fast learner and again very mature. Someone will be able to show you and grow with you as you learn.

Another reason why I'm writing this letter is because I feel a slight tension brewing or just a break in communication between ------- and I. Maybe it’s for other reason, but ---- brought it to my attention that ------- may be acting so differently towards me because at one point I expressed my interest in you. Maybe there is something else behind it that I'm not seeing but that’s not my concern. It did dawn on me though because he called ---- twice in one day and failed to return my call showing when I showed interest in his health and well being. Then when ---- said he was at my house while talking to him at no point did he say tell ------- I'm feeling better or that I got his message. That’s just a courtesy I believe. But again it doesn't matter we are all adults and we have to be accountable for how we act and I don't have the time or the desire to worry about it. I knew it would happen before I expressed how I felt about you. So, as Lethia said, "I have to deal with the consequences."

Anyway you are a sweet guy, with many qualities desired by many. I just wanted to say all of this because I think the idea of dating should be a thing of the past. Now that I have said all of this I know there will be more consequences behind my words. Just know that I am always a friend.

You can ask me for anything and I'm there. You will make some a wonderful partner one day and I hope to still be your friend when that day comes.

Love you much.

And you don't have to respond just know that I'm always here and always a friend.