While driving home tonight I realized that I give too much of myself. Last night I went out and danced with some friends -- I was advised that several people had made eye contact with me at the club but I was in my own zone and failed to pay attention to it. On the freeway driving back home I was informed that since I'm such a shy person and someone who has so much going for himself at such a "young age," that I was a major threat to those interested in me. To be frank with you ... Utter bullshit. As I sit here and type this entry I just wanna scream! Everyone has their issues but I'm starting to think that alot of people out there really don't know what they want in life. Whatever happened to changing the game and making a new path for yourself in life for others to follow? For once I need someone that I run into to be a trailblazer ... Yes, a trailblazer!

This picky shit is starting to stress me out ... Maybe I just need to break down and settle for something that's below my standards (or even worst: Someone who would lower my property value). I know at times I can be a difficult person to please (notice I didn't say -- Get along with). Like Jennifer Holliday said: "What about what I need, What about what's best for me?" ~Dreamgirls

Maybe I need to interrupt someone's (at this point -- Stranger or Friend) wedding and sing that Vesta song "Congratulation." Right about now I feel like it should've been me ... Hell, why shouldn't it be me?

I probably could go on and on about this subject matter ... but I'll cut the crap and keep it short for your sake (If someone is actually reading this).

This evening I went to 7-11 and picked up the latest copy of "Sister 2 Sister," magazine with LeToya and LaTavia featured on the cover with their new group, Anjel. It was refreshing to hear what they were up too ... and it eased my mind being that LaTavia was always my favorite.

Alright ... I'm Gone.